Of course there's heartbreak. Isn't that the repetitive theme of Jack's life?
His fingers curl around Ianto's and cling as he feels his way through the aftermath of the revelation with a few shuddery breaths.
"I think that's the first time I've said it out loud," he says shakily. "There's no-one else I could say it to."
Except perhaps Spike or Martha, but he hasn't quite got there with either of them so far.
He shakes his head, as if to shake away the emotions that threaten, and forces himself to continue with the story. "I was down on a nearby planet, getting supplies. I saw the explosion - heard it - felt it." He grits his teeth. "It should have been me up there. If they'd just come down instead of me..."
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His fingers curl around Ianto's and cling as he feels his way through the aftermath of the revelation with a few shuddery breaths.
"I think that's the first time I've said it out loud," he says shakily. "There's no-one else I could say it to."
Except perhaps Spike or Martha, but he hasn't quite got there with either of them so far.
He shakes his head, as if to shake away the emotions that threaten, and forces himself to continue with the story. "I was down on a nearby planet, getting supplies. I saw the explosion - heard it - felt it." He grits his teeth. "It should have been me up there. If they'd just come down instead of me..."